I have been thinking a lot about how I feel about people, what they say, how they are doing, what they are up to..and so on. Well for the most part I am a caring person. Really I am! However there is a person out there that I really could care less about. I dont care about anything that they tell me. I actually get so annoyed and bothered by them. I try really hard to be nice to them, to stroke their ego, laugh at their jokes, and more. I do this thinking that it will help me be ok with them, ok that they are in my life , ok that they are among the living. But it is not helping me accept that at all. I take pride in the fact that I am a good person, I am a good friend, a good mother and daughter. But not being able to be any of that to this person and accept them for who they are is hard for me. I feel like a bad person because of the thoughts and feelings I have about this person. I know that I have faults, I know that some people may not like me either and that's their prerogative even though that bothers me a little bit too. I will not get into why, another post for another day.
I hope I am making sense. Sorry if you do not like this post. I will try to be more happy in the next one.
What are some ideas that you have that helps you in this situation?